My faith.

Over the past couple months, i have been on fire for god. But some things have popped up recently and i can feel god all around me. and I feel as if hes all i consume. And hes the air i'm breathing. I pray and pray every night, waiting for him to reveal himself to me. Is this how he is doing it?


While i'm writing this I'm thinking 'Can gods thoughts be out thoughts?' But then i think no. Because I think about every single person out in the world, that always thinks about porn, or sex, or killing them selves, Or why do people cuss or do drugs? God wouldn't ever think about that stuff. 'Then why does he put it in ourheads?' well thats not god, thats the devil. I never realized that till i read this.

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," says the LORD. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55:8-9)

I'm growing alone.

This is very awkward writing out my emotions. Usually I draw them out. I'm changing as a person. I thought I was growing very close to some very amazing people. But I changed. And honestly, I'm very disturbed about this. I'm not out of my shell yet, and I'm just learning to trust people. (Emily the most) Mostly I'm afraid of being judged. I feel as if I'm alone. I know some of the people don't care. But really, who does? I feel like screaming at a wall, because there is no one else to scream at. But anyways. I'm learning to trust. help?